I feel it is good to do a bit of “emotional processing” to help with the journey of spiritual growth forward in life isn’t it? What does that mean you may ask? Why does that even matter to me and my life and what I am doing trying to get through the day or the week or this huge challenge that I am facing in my very own life? Well of course the reason it matters because if you do not grow and change you get stuck. Repeating patterns that could serve you better if you mixed them up a little bit! Change the energy of the repeating pattern just a few notches up to where it is comfortable for you et voila! A whole new perspective, new choices, and new results! Not maybe a groundbreaking discovery each and every time, but each little easy step certainly paves the way for those Eureka moments to pop into being out of seemingly thin air lol!!
So here is a little story from the far distant recesses of my mind, an incredibly long time ago. I was a child, in the literal and figurative meanings of the word. Therefore what I am trying to say was I was very young, even for my age at the time. Life was beautiful and special and filled with one millions thoughts and feelings every day – what fun! I was very lucky enough to meet a beautiful soul and as you can tell, they were so kind and good that they made a lasting positive impression on me even to this very day, years later. Back then (at around age 17 probably??) I had the emotional age of a feckin peanut!! 
So I would very much like to say I am sorry that I wasn’t able to form any sort of proper relationship with you, I am truly sorry for that, as you were and of course still are 100% the best and most decent human being, I was just unable to do anything like that back then! In one sentence, I can describe the problems we both faced that stopped us having a good relationship. One evening we had met up and we were hugging on the sofa (not a euphemism for sex ok everyone just a nice cuddle) and he said to me “I’m sorry I have got sick on my jumper” and I replied “I don’t care” and in that one moment in time, we were perfectly happy, just chilled, hugging like that all night. Yes with the sicky jumper on lol!
But back to being serious again, for me anyway, when you have one million thoughts and feelings running through your head every day, when you lean your heart up against another beautiful heart, even for just 5 minutes, you feel at perfect peace and contentment, as that kind soul just lets you feel their heart and takes you into their energy and wraps you up in it like a blanket. And that feeling stays with you forever you don’t forget what that feels like do you?
It is all good folks! Just as a footnote I am good friends with this chap, he has met a couple of my boyfriends over the years, and vice versa and we have always been super pleased thinking of the other one living a happy life, of course we both think that, because we are good-hearted people!! We also all met up at a wedding one time where he bonded with my boyfriend at the time too in a way that only guys seem to find easy and funny.
Because these days I have reached a better level of emotional maturity to the size of a hairy kiwi fruit I can say I am pleased about the whole story now. Happy times everyone and enjoy your journeys of growth and evolution! Woooooo oooooohh!
Love and light to you all
Jiivanii
XOXO
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